I LOVE FUNNY. Don't get me wrong. It's bizzare cause something about the picture just set me me off. IIt was like- I just felt like it was insincere somehow like you are more than just a middle finger and I felt offended by it. It was like hey -we deserve more than a facebook mentality. We aren't them. Let down your mask. But I do get it at the same time cause I love nothing more than laughing with my friends and find no subject taboo at the same time. Facehook IS truly one of the most absurd things and can bring out a reaction to that absurdity of yeah F it all- this is insane.  But somehow it did not belong here and I HAD TO SAY SOMETHING. I get the whole anarchic punk mentality of let's push people's buttons but we are just WAAAAY beyond that in maturity level. My friend Landon does this all time posts purposely offensive pics he deems "just a joke god Mary" - he does not really mean it but there is another layer he is missing about it. To me it's like WHy would you go out of your way to create antagonism where there was peace before?  To what end does it acheive to bring about a feeling of great now I am angry like this person is?  Thanks for infecting me with your sardonic attitude and I think I just spent so much time hanging out with people who had lost all sense of feeling okay with themselves and world and everything is crap that I just want to preserve a corner of my life free of that. Whatever I am overanalyzing it. You just posted a funny to you pic. It rubbed me the wrong way.

But the reality is If you hung out with us JAson and I we are hilarious and pretty much find everything funny that most people think is serious and they would probably call us sick minded! :)

BUT this year something happened and weridly enough profanity on every level has become repugnant to me. I can't say it. I cringe when I hear it. It's not a prude thing.  I engage in humor that occasionally references crude bodily functions. I am not offended by sex or the body. However when it comes to expression of profanity something changed in me. 

 I FEEL IT. I feel the words and the symbolism. They are just words right? NO.  There is too much history imbuing the symbolism of it with an energy of emotion. A storm of psychic energy.

It's not you making the bird. IT's you and everyone who has ever made the bird on top of it. Your intent of lightheartedness is not known and lost in the symbolism. It's like now I have to take ultimate responsibility for tany hose expressions if I say them. Alchemy does this thing where it makes everything unmasked and both detaches you and yet also reveals to you layers of texture of feeling of EVERYTHING.   If I cuss I am leaving a mess behind in the atmosphere end of story. That is kind of what happens with the alchemy.  You reach a point where you cannot ignore your inner truth ( me telling it bugged me ) and you feel everything you do and whether its integrous. Now you would say - hey it's just words lighten up already but words are thoughts and thoughts are things. They now exist hanging in the air fouling it up.  anyway let's kill this it's done. AND In any event you are a good looking man and I prefer beauty over sarcasm anyday. :)  In any event I do truly welcome you and thanks for changing your picture. I just wanted to explain more of where I am coming from. 

I hate the idea of censorship though. So I am sorry for being hardass about it. I hope you find some answers here- and if you have questions PLEASE post them under the SOCIAL tab in DISCUSSION section. I am dying to talk to someone who feels like having an intelligent conversation. You seem to be. we have many intelligent people here who just don't seem to have any questions or use the forums for discussion and I would love to discuss. Ask away if you dare. Pondering is fun.