what is the value of a thing? in the quary of my thoughts. thinking as i did then as i remember the way it was. in the expanse and scope of my life's time engaged in depraved acts of self defeat. and i worried so well that i began to believe that it was ever possible to be anything other than myself.
but where are we going and how do we need to be for that plot of space time to arrive. signed sealed and delivered, a reality packaged in brown canvas paper on your front door?
the door bell rings and you run outside but first you meet the door. and unconscious to the floor fall to nothing.
a blank stare awakens you and the white square room was where we found you. Captain Tealonus pointed to the hologram emitter represenatation of her mental fragment suspended in a translucent plasma field.
"dear mr. Phlank it pains the committee that we must decline your funding request this year. We wish you well on your future endeavours and thank you for interest in our organization. Sincerely, the polite women's brigade of lower tucson."
i crumpled the rejection notice in my hand. Then he looked within the obscurity of his thoughts walking across the room thinking of a moment that had never occured. I was in the middle of a corn field. no wait, it was wheat. Golden hands like filaments, amoeboid tentacalia wistfully wantingly reaching upward emanating into fractaled light dissipating into where upwards goes that it did not already know. He woke unconscious on the floor again. I had never left.
How many days were you gone? I don't know.
She was heroic and stunningly shaped. Standing in the electronic light encapsuled in the tin belly of the Federation Star: Blondo One. Defiant, even after all those lost years in hyper sleep, all her friends her family her world gone into the ashes of time. blown dust on crypts unattended by a fragmented mind dreaming in a universe she made her own. But now she's back and doesn't miss a beat not a step. i'm looking at her and i'm falling in love, Great Zeldefecki i'm falling in love with a terran. i really should know better, but what a great experiment it would be.
maybe we can go to a movie.
and in the aquasphere we were awkard and deformed.